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Journal.Kim —A Metasystem Experiment

It gets easier. Every day it gets a little easier. But you gotta do it every day, that’s the hard part. But it does get easier.
—Bojack Horseman

Sixty-four: Mass Derailments

 | #sixty-forth-week

Week Sixty-four! Well, it finally happened. The consequences of constantly edge-skating with beemergencies caught up to me. On Wednesday, I had a small emergency (everything is fine now) that caused me to miss a good portion of my daily routine, and caused a bunch of derailments because of that:

  • /obsidian ($0)
  • /jobs ($1)
  • /prayer ($1)
  • /learning ($0)
  • /writing ($5)
  • /meditation ($10)
  • /french ($10)

I decided that it’d be much less of a hassle to just let them all go through and pay–it was a lot less money than I thought (less than $30 total), and I suppose that’s because I rarely derail normally. (Any goal that’s <$5 hasn’t derailed once.)

Now, you could make the argument that I’m not derailing enough, and that my goals are simply too easy to achieve, but there’s a bout of suspicion on my end that that sort of philosophy is partially money-motivated for Beeminder itself. 🤔

Regardless, it did bring down my morale for quite a bit. I didn’t bother going through each goal and ratcheting back to immediately start everything the next day. I instead let the default 7 days of respite go through and give myself a bit of an impromptu break. That was, though, a bad idea. As I’ve said before, inactivity begets inactivity, and I subsequently also derailed on /github and /productivity, yeesh.

But, I’m ratcheting everything tonight and starting my full daily routine again tomorrow. I can fail everything–even easy things, a million time–but so long as I keep bouncing back and continuing then that’s all that matters!

In other good news, I’m finally half-vaxxed today as well! And my area is fully reopening on July 1st, which I am cautiously optimistic about.